so if something about this blog is different im doing it from my phone :')... just so you know! first time for everythin :')
Neways ... been thinking about how u think you know somebody and then they do something or say something which makes u think you don't know them :s ... thats happened several times past couple of days. i guess u never really know anyone... like my dad says to me 'you can't trust anyone, you never know'. I guess thats true, i dont know what anyone is capable of or what there gonna do, but if i dont trust anyone wouldnt that constantly make me on edge?! maybe thats why i am like i am? i build these 'walls' around me for protection, waiting for something to go wrong; i know thats probably bad, but how do u stop thinking something that you've always lived with?
Another thing is i hve been offered a place to go to borneo on expidition for 10 weeks and debating whether to go? like knowing myself i know i will most likely hate it... lets face it, im materialistic, care about how i look and love my family and friends 2 much 2 leave them. i cannot imagine waking up in a forest, having to have a wee in a bush, a bath in a river and not looking at my mobile to see who i can chat 2 lmao! but who else has had this oppourtunity? and wont it make me a better person? i have depending on people for anything, but wont his make me more independent? and also im guessin id loose weight over there HUGE bonus right?? i duno i guess ... i gta keep thinkin! also where the hell am i gna find the money?? rite now i cnt even buy myself a chocolate bar! :') ah well...
Well im tired, so im going to bed, had2 many late nights and early mornings...
Night world <3
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